Millie's Birth Story

I WILL ADD PICTURES SOON!!

     *note: although I won't go into a lot of details, I am telling the full birth story, so if you want you can just scroll through the pics and skip the long boring story :p*

     We had finally settled down for the night around midnight. I was so so SO tired that I was asleep the minute my head hit the pillow. As I was just drifting off to sleep I thought to myself, "I'm glad tomorrow is sunday and that our church doesn't start till 1. That will give me time to put all of Millie's presents away and to finally pack my hospital bag." Well my intentions were good but apparently fate had other plans...I awoke at 2 a.m. sharp with pretty strong contractions. I had not felt ones like these with Bentley because by the time they were getting that bad I had gotten my epidural, so I was almost confused by the pain. I had a lot of lower pressure that made me think I just had a really upset stomach and that I needed to go to the bathroom. Not to go into details but I sat on the toilet for a half hour in total and I came to the conclusion that I can better understand how someone could deliver a baby in the toilet. Haha As crazy as that sounds, the pressure was so strong that I couldn't tell if it was my bowels or actual contractions, it was really weird.

     This whole time I had been timing the contractions just in case they actually WERE contactions, and after about an hour of breathing through them and having them be 5 minutes apart, I told Jayson we needed to go.

     Remember that fleeting thought I had just as I was falling asleep??? Yea.....I had NO hospital bag packed for us to go. *sigh* Story of my life. So for that hour of knuckling through the pain I managed to pack my bag with (hopefully) all that I needed. By 3:05 a.m. we called my sister-in-law Kira to come up to stay at the condo, and by 3:15 we were at Lakeview Hospital. Thank GOODNESS for wheelchairs!! I don't think I would have been able to walk far, the pain and pressure were increasing by the minute and I was already super emotional because I just didn't feel ready. I cried on the whole 5 minute car ride to the hospital. I hate not having everything planned out. I was SO close to being prepared, if only I had one more day. haha
Anyways, so I was checked in and hooked up to the monitors by 3:30 a.m. and when they checked me I was at a 5-6 and 100% effaced. Right as she was finished checking me, I felt some lovely liquid start to flow out.....and realized my water had broke. Sweet! Although the down side to this...it made the contractions even worse! They had notified my doctor that I was there and I told them that I REALLY needed the anesthesist asap. :) 
     They ask you to tell them where the pain is at on a scale of 1-10. Honestly when I had first woken up to the contractions, they felt already at the 4-5. No joke. Now I would like to think that I have an ok pain tolerence, and I was doing ok with the contractions for the most part, but the hardest part about them was that since they had started out so strong to begin, I couldn't really allow myself to build myself up and prepare for the harder ones. So it was difficult having to manage so much pain all at ONCE.
     They told me the anesthestist was 25 minutes away....and that was the hardest most confusing 25 minutes of the whole delivery. I was a little frustrated by the nurses when they needed to know certain info that only I could give them. I understand they needed the info but at that time I just wanted to close my eyes and shut all of them out. Again, because the contractions were coming so fast and strong I was struggling with just maintaining my composure. Jayson was awesome at holding my hand and reminding me to breathe. He helped me roll on my side when I felt I needed to be there and then 2 minutes he would help roll me back. haha He was great, I definitely could not have done that without him.
     Finally, the anesthesist showed up and he became my new best friend. :D After the epidural was in, I finally felt like myself again. It was nice to feel like I could finally get "settled" and mentally prepare myself for delivery. What I liked about this epidural was that I was able to still lift my legs a little on my own, and I would get just enough pressure to know I was having a contraction. I really liked that better compared to feeling like a big numbed sack of potatoes. It also helped me monitor the contractions and move around enough to get comfortable. By 7:15 though the pressure was getting really intense! Almost at a level 7-8 pain again! So I asked if the anesthesist could come and give me a "booster" shot. Now after going through this, I learned that I should have had them check me before I got the booster, because once I recieved it....I went completely sack of potatoes numb.  :(  I was bummed because I liked being able to move my legs and feel as if I had some inkling as to what my body was doing. Well they checked me right after and found that I was ready to go! (If I had know that, I would not have asked for the booster and would have braved the pain) My doctor arrived, they checked me, and got ready for delivery.

     Now, when Bentley was born, he swollowed some fluid just as he was coming out, so they laid him on my chest for about 15 seconds, then had to rush him over to clean out his lungs. Although I still had him on a my chest for a quick time, I wished I could have had him longer. So for this baby, I asked the delivery nurses if all went well and she was fine, that I wanted her on my chest for at LEAST the first 5 minutes. They were great to oblige and said "no problem". They brought in my mirror so I could see what I was doing, and the pushing began! *insert dramatic music*

     I started pushing at around 7:40 a.m., and after 3 sets of pushing, Millie Rose Alexander was born at 7:49 a.m. weighing an even 6 lbs and measuring 17 in. She looked SOOO teeny to me! I couldn't believe it! Even her umbilical cord was small and short, so the dr. just quickly cut it and.....laid her on my chest! It was awesome having her for that long with me. I helped the nurse clean her off and we cleared her nose and throat. (honestly I think Jayson was a little grossed out, but I loved it haha) I finally let them take her to get finished cleaning up and by that time my doctor was all done sewing me up. Sweet :)
     Millie was healthy but for some reason she would stay warm! They brought her back to me and had me do skin-to-skin with her to help get her temp up. I had her for about 10-15 minutes and they took her temp again, still a little cold. So Jayson went with them to the nursery to put her under the heat lamp until her temp could get back up to where it should be.

*a fun little fact. Bentley was born at 7:57 p.m. and Millie was born at 7:49 a.m.!! Apparently I'll be having all my babies before 8:00.....*

     After Millie got her temp up, they brought her back to me and I was able to start nursing her. What a champ! She does awesome at nursing and it's such a relief. By 10:00 I was all settled in my recovery room and we told my family and Jayson's that they could come and visit their new granddaughter! She got lots of the love that day and it was great seeing all the happiness that she brought into our families lives.
     It's truly been a blessing having her, and I'm constantly grateful for the easy delivery and recovery that I was able to have. I know never to take that for granted. The nurses were absoluetely wonderful to us and my doctor was amazing. I could never thank them enough for the love and time they put into taking care of me and Mille.

Harry Potter!!

Jayson and I went with my brother and his wife Emily to see the last Harry Potter movie!! I am such a HP fan and I was so excited to see this movie! I knew I was going to be super emotional throughout the movie...and I was....haha It was nice having a double date with Jeff and Emily, we haven't had a chance to do something like that yet so it was great spending the time together and catching up. Love you guys!

As excited as I was to see the movie, I was SO tired that night from the shower and getting everything ready. Once we got to the theatre I was starting to feel a little uncomfortable sitting down. It literally felt like her head was right "there" if you know what I mean, she must have dropped throughout the day and I only started noticing it that night. Anyways, the movie was fabulous but I was ready to head home. We got home a little after 11, picked up Bentley from my parents house then headed home.

All I'm going to say on this matter is....Jayson and I aren't very good at de-bunking old wives tales about how to induce labor....NOT that we were actually trying, (we weren't) we just figured that a little ah....*cough* "cuddle session" wouldn't result in anything because everyone that I had talked to said that NEVER worked for them.....well........*see next post*

Catching Up....

It's funny to think it's only been TWO weeks since I had Millie, but I've been itching to get some posts done.

So here goes nothing!!
(fyi For some reason a lot of these pics came out blurry, sorry!)

As July was coming to a near end, my mom and I realized that we needed to get the ball rolling on my baby shower. haha My mom loves throwing me showers and parties and wanted to give me one last hurrah with this little baby. It was almost a mad rush to get invites and stuff planned (all I have to say is thank GOODNESS for Facebook Event invites....buahah) Anyhoo, as funny as it was I enjoyed helping plan my own shower :p  The timing was great also because my dear and very close friend Madi was visitng from Florida, so I KNEW we had to have the shower while she was here.

Last picture of me pregnant!!!

All I have to say is, I have the BEST friends and family! They never cease to amaze me with their love and support for me and my family. We had a great show up and yummy yummy food to enjoy! How great was it to see friends and babies, aunts, grandma's, long time friends???? It was wonderful. It definitely brought a great feeling into my life that day.

The funniest part about this shower, was that we were ALL joking about when I was going to have the baby. I kept telling everyone how I was glad for at least one more week to get fully prepared for her arrival. I was getting great advice from my cousin Brit, and many suggestions to just "relax" for the last week and enjoy the time given.

So later that evening Jayson and I took the advice and we.........(see next post)

4th of July

Sadly I didn't take too many pictures but we had a GREAT bbq with our friends the Pace's. They always have the best food and it's always such a low key environment, I love it! :)

Later we went over to Jayson's family and lit off fireworks. The best part about having all fireworks be legal this year, is that we had multiple families around the neighborhood who went all out and bought TONS of those kinds of fireworks, so we had a great fireworks show for FREEEE! Yay!

Plus Bently loved watching all of them and eating lots of popcycles. =)

Stadium of Fire

Wow! What an AWESOME 4th of July this year! First of all, I have to give a huge shout out to my AMAZING husband for buying me Stadium of Fire tickets for our anniversary!



It was such an awesome day and we really enjoyed ourselves. It was extrememly hot that day and our seats happened to be on the east side of the stadium.....which meant we got the sun FACING us until right before the concert started.

So everyone on our side stayed below with the concession stands until the sun went down. haha Lets just say that was the hardest part since all I wanted to do was SIT DOWN, but we made it work.

I always get super emotion with anything patriotic. When they sing God Bless the USA, I always get teary-eyed and I just have so much pride for our country. They had amazing dancers and the coolest part was they had parachuters fly in. Then the last parachuter flew in with the american flag. Very cool, although he came in kind-of low and took out a photographer!! Pretty exciting :p





David Archuleta was the guest performer and he was fabulous! I'll always have a sweet spot for David *wink*



Then.........BRAD PAISLY!! Oh my goodness he is one good looking man and he is SO talented! I don't think many people know what a talented guitar player he is! He can really rock on that guitar =-)

It was a great last date before the baby gets here and it was so nice spending the whole day with my husband! It's been so long since we just had time to walk around, grab a bite to eat, then enjoy ourselves and get home super late. haha Love you babe! 

Countdown Begins........

Wow. I'm officially 37 weeks and have 3 weeks to go!! Woohoo!! I can't believe how fast the time went. It's actually kind-of sad. Haha I know I'm weird. Anyways, on monday we were able to get our double stroller that I've been itching to get! Thank you KSL. I even got the matching carseat to go with it. SWEEET :)

Also, I made up the invitation for the baby shower my mom wants to give me. Because this is a girl this will probably be my last babyshower so I'm super excited to get everyone together to celebrate!! yay!!

Wish List

Please excuse me agian as I cave into my hormonal emotions and write up a "wish list: of things I've been brooding over.....

1) Money - I know this sounds very snooty to put on a wish list, but the only reason why I put it as number 1 is because with money, I'd be able to accomplish everything else on my "hormonal wish list" haha

2) Unlimited supply of any fabric/color/design

3) My own sewing machine - This one is actually very easy for me to accomplish, it just comes down to me actually REMEMBERING to do it and ask the help of fellow members who have offered their old ones to me =-)

4) I want to fill my pond/garden bed with as many plants and flowers as I could possibly fit

5) The double-Graco stroller i've been drooling over ever since I discovered it.....stroller

6) All the baby stuff I never had with Bentley but I know want because we have the room and.....I just want them now. HAHA

7) I would freakin LOOOOOVE a newer car without ANY problems! I want a nice family car that will give me joy and not grief. That I will be able to manage nicely with 2 kids. Something like this...CAR 

8) A new digital camera

9) All the scapbooking supplies I could ever need.....*sigh*

10) LASIK!!!

11) I just want MORE stability right now. It's been driving me crazy waiting for the new business to get up and running. I'm so anxious for everything to just get going! We've been in limbo for almost a year now and to be honest with you.....I'm just DONE with it. I don't want to be the patient wife anymore. haha I know that sounds horrible, and I hate saying it. But I'm just too tired to work on it anymore. Especially with getting ready for a new baby.....SOME kind of stability will be very nice to have here in the near future. Lets all keep our fingers crossed that it will be up and running by next week and that this will be a great family business to have for many, many years. New business venture

12) I would to be able to get all the needed software/stuff to make our computer as fully funtioning as possible. I would love a nice, sleek new printer/copier/fax machine. That would be SWEET!

13) I want all the health problems from both sides of the family to just GO AWAY

Anyways, to all my friends who actually put up with reading my blog, I would like to thank you all. Thank you for sticking with me the past few months as I've had many ups and downs and put them all out here on my blog. Thank you for not judging me (too harshly) on my thoughts and attitude on things. Thank you for just being my friend. I love you all deeply and appreciate every moment we spend together.

Summer Day

Today was a pretty nice, relaxed day.

First, I visited my FABULOUS Dr. Ward for my almost-36 wk appointment.

He is AWESOME!!

Everything looks honkey dory! They did the strep swap culture thingy....which I tested positive for with Bentley, so cross your fingers that this time I WON'T have it and I won't need the extra meds at the hospital before delivery. =-) After today I go in once a week till I deliver!! Whoop whoop!!

Baby is now the size of a large catalope and weighs aboutt 5 1/2 lbs! yay!

After the appointment Bentley went to the library where I got some new books to read! Yay!

Then we went to Smith's to pick up a few groceries. Thankfully on our way home Bentley fell asleep, so after we got home I was able to put him down for a 2 hour nap and I...........re-organized the garage!!

Don't worry, I was careful not to move anuthing heavy. Thankfully most of the stuf were just odds and ends that needed a good spot to be stored. I'm super bummed I forgot a before picture but hopefully tomorrow I can post an after picture!! Once we get rid of our old nasty bed, we'll be able to park the car in the garage! Yay! No more roasting burning car, especially after the baby is born.....no bueno =-)

After I finished Jayson got home and Bentley played in his new little Whale pool. Again, probably tomorrow I'll be able to post a pic.

Alas, the day was filled with much needed errands to be accomplished and some fun outdoor time. =-) Until tomorrow!

Family

"In a world where everyone is granted agency, some of our loved ones may stray for a season. But we can never give up. We must always go back for them—we must never stop trying."

Bradley D. Foster

"In these last days it is essential—even critical—that parents and children listen to and learn from one another."

M. Russell Ballard

"If any of you are struggling with contention in your homes, you can change this. Talk with your family. Ask for their help. Tell them you don't want a contentious spirit in the home anymore and discuss what each family member can do to prevent it."

M. Russell Ballard


I've been thinking A LOT about family lately. Only a few people in my life really know how deep down emotionally I can feel about things. When things come up with certain family members, or an unfortunate event has happened, I really suffer. I think I get his deep emotional connection from my mom. She's always saying how she "suffers" with people, and I never really understand the meaning of that until I started experiencing it myself. When a family member of ours is struggling, or says something, or expresses hurt or pain or betrayal; it REALLY gets to me. I can't stop thinking about it. I think about all these things I would like to say to that person, and yet I can't. It never allows itself to be said. I know that sounds funny but it's true. I'll have a whole conversation on the subject in my head, but I never have the gumption to actually say it. haha Silly I know.

The thing is, I love my family SO stinkin much! And it's hard for me to see the choices that some of them make, not because they don't follow my own values, but because it doesn't make them HAPPY! I could honestly care less what path or decisions they choose to make, as long as their happy. But sometimes their out look on "being happy" can actually result in hurting others, which to me isn't true happiness in their lives if they feel they have to ask respect from EVERYONE else, and yet they're so picky on who they give resepect to. How does that work? There is so much hyprocrsy going around it drives me crazy. That is what gets me sad and aches for them. The fact that they don't realize how their lack of respect towards others can hurt those people.

Look, I'm not naive, I know we won't always agree with every single family member, but that doesn't mean we shouldn't RESPECT eachother!!!

When I go into someones house, I don't go in thinking "It's a privlage for them to have me here, so if they have a problem with something I do then I don't need to come over anymore."......ah yea.......not very classy. When you go into someones home you need to go in their respecting their things and their feelings about things being done a certain way. You don't have to agree with the decision, but you should respect it and put up with it for the 2 hours you're there for. And guess what? I would do the same to you!!

I don't think it's fair when everyone else in the family is asked to respect someone elses lifestyle or choices, when they don't return the respect to others. It's called COMPROMISING. Heaven forbid you have to go out of your way for a family member to feel that you actually care.

I know I'm going off on a tangent right now and I apologize, but sometimes I just get worn down worrying and putting so much emotion into family members who don't recognize the time or sacrafice we give them.

Sometimes I feel like they don't really know me, and if they don't know me it's because they haven't taken the TIME to know me. I will love them always no matter what. I don't care what lifestyle or choices you make, as long as they take care of themselves and they're LOVING BACK. Sometimes I feel treated like I'm not "cool enough" to become involved in their lives. They make feel like I'm this prudish person who is going to condemn them to hell for telling me about their lives. And that's what galls me. That is when I know that they don't really know me. You know what? All because I don't DO half the things you do, doesn't mean you can't TALK  to me about it!! I WANT to be a part of your lives if you just allow me to. But I never feel good enough. I don't like being singled out because I go to church and do things different, that's not fair to me.

I just want my family to know that I love them very much! Every family member, no matter if we get along, or "get along" I will always love you. I hope that Jayson and I can become a greater part in your lives if you just allow us to be. Yea, I know that we can make a greater effort ourselves, and that's what we're hoping to get better at, but don't write us off completely as people whom you can have a strong and trusting relationship with.

If you've ever felt like I judged you, then I'm sorry. I never meant for it to come out that way. I've always prided myself as being an accepting person, and I hope you feel that enough from me that you can talk to me.



My Family



Times like these.....

help make me forget the HOURS you spent screaming today.

It helps me forget the last WEEK where you've screamed because we think you're teething and you are not enjoying it.

It helps me forget how you want me to hold you alot but sister doesn't always like that idea and takes it out on me.....

I love you my sweet little boy who is SO stinkin smart!

You bring so much joy to your mom and dad and seeing you act so big.....is both so sad and exciting to watch.

My mini-summer project

*just a little reminder that we're currently living in my grandparents condo while they're on their mission....otherwise this post might seem a little weird.....HAHA*

I remember MANY years ago when my grandparent's put this pond in, and since then it has gone through MANY transformations! It was always fun every summer to find a new little knick knack to give to my grandma to put in her garden. She was an amazing gardener and constantly loved having flowers around her.

I will always remember her stargazer lilies.....she had SO many of them and I would love to walk through with her as she showed me all her flowers.

Unfortunately in her last years of life due to illnesses she wasn't able to keep up with her pond and garden any longer, and since then......well lets just say that the pond got taken over by every weed possible!

So......I took to the task of completely cleaning out the pond area of all weed life, and I'm hoping in the next week or two to put in some nice flowers that remind me of grandma.



Even though I loved all the greenery, it was just TOO much and ALL weeds.....



It was insane cleaning out ALL those weeds!! But I just love the aftermath, don't you? You can actually SEE the pond and now you can see all the cute little garden decorations my grandma collected through the years.

Don't you just LOVE the lilipads!?!? They are my absolute favorite!!

I'm not nearly close to having it complete, and once the pond area is finished I need to tackle the walk way....*shudders* But we'll see what my body will allow me to do.

Anyways, I love and miss you so much grandma! Your great-grandson is getting as much enjoyment from the pond as I did as a little girl. Thank you for sharing with me your joy of flowers and creating life. I hope you like the finished product!

p.s. Thanks mom for helping me finish the weeding this morning!! xoxo

Today....

was such a nice, relaxing day. I was expecting my friends Crystal and Jocelyn to come over (with the babies!!!!) so I knew I had some work to do this morning. Can I just say that cleaning is so much more enjoyable when you have good motivation behind it? I enjoy cleaning in general but it's always nice when it's better motivated. I FINALLY pulled out a lot of our pictures and put them up in our (now) clean bedroom! I will hopefully remember to take a picture and post, but I doubt that will happen.....haha Anyways, Bentley was the best little helper today and we did 5 loads of laundry together! He is growing so much everyday I can't believe it sometimes. His communication is starting to pick up more and his interest in everything is so much fun to watch! We bought him his first kiddie pool which I'm hoping to use in the next day or two, but until then we played with chalk today.

All in all, even though I didn't leave the condo the WHOLE day, it was such a nice time to spend with friends and I'm glad we were able to snuggle our babies and talk mommy/girl talk. YES!!!!

p.s. Waddya think of the new banner? It made me realize that Jayson and I need more pictures with Bentley!!

-Ta

A Passing....

My sweet uncle Steve passed away on June 5 with my father and uncle Paul by his side. He was such a talented man and enjoyed his life immensly. He fought with stage 4 colon cancer and went out the way he wanted to. He was always sensitive about others and I knew that he didn't want my aunt with him when he passed, he didn't want her to have to go through that. So he waited it out until my dad got there, then 10 minutes later left this place and returned to our Heavenly Father. My thoughts and prayers are constantly with my aunt Jill and her sweet kids as they adjust to this new life without a hustband/father. The funeral was lovely and I'm very greatful that Jayson and I were able to drive to Vegas and attend it with my family. I really have a great supportive family, and even though I know we drive eachother crazy about dumb things, we are always there to support one another. Bless you Steve and your family, and say hi to Grandma for me while you're there......

Steven Vandervort Obituary: View Steven Vandervort's Obituary by Las Vegas Review-Journal

Steven Vandervort Obituary: View Steven Vandervort's Obituary by Las Vegas Review-Journal

May & June

Well boy howdy!!

I've made it to June.....YAY!!! Want a review of the past month and a half???? I'm sure you do! So here goes,

May was pretty crazy to say the least. Along with the family birthdays and normal happenings of day to day life, work was a giant clock counting down the time till the end of school. My friend/co-worker Jocelyn had her baby, so we had to start the new hiring process and also train our new TA. We were SOOO blessed to get an awesome lady who is fun, bubbly, and LISTENS and LEARNS. I can't even begin to express to you how frustrating it is to hire someone, then have that person think either

a) They already "know" what to do

b) They pretend to listen to the teacher, then still goes ahead and does things "their" way or

c) Tries to do the least work possible.

Unfortunately my sweet boss has had to deal with all these types of TA's in the past, so it's always stressful and just NOT fun to have to hire a new person. But we LOVE our Ms. JoAnne!! Yay!

Anyways, so along with all that, My boss was also counting down the time until she finally popped. haha She was actually starting to progress in her pregnancy with contractions and other signs of possibly delivering....but baby Lann had other things in mind. I think he just really liked being in Crystal's tummy and didn't want to come out. So he actually held on for another 2 weeks then we expected. Needless to say, preparing a classroom for summer cleaning and getting the kids ready for summer /next year can get a little crazy. My boss decided to take the last week of school off and I'm so glad she did. She definitley needed the break and I would not have wanted her to go through all that stress. Anyways, sorry I keep wandering off on the convo =-p

FINALLY the last day of school arrived and.....I was an emotional wreck. First off, my boss and very good friend Crystal had-had her baby the day before and had a tough delivery. So I was thinking about her all day. Also, I still haven't decided what I'll be doing about work next year....and the realization that the last day of school could actually BE my LAST DAY was really getting to me. Plus, add on the fact that I'm 8 months pregnant wasn't really helping the situation. haha

Anyways, I tried to keep it together for most of the day, I gave EXTRA big hugs to the kiddos who won't be comig back next year, and went over to my mommy and cried. HAHA Yes, my mom also works at my school and thank HEAVENS For that, because she was the only one there who really understood what I was feeling, and it's always great having your mom there with you when you're crying. So the day ended, and my mom and I headed over (finally) to the hospital to visit my boss. I was so emotional with her because she is the sweetest, most caring person and I HATED knowing she had to go through so much to bring her sweet little baby into this world. The saying "sacfrificing your body" during pregnancy  pretty much summed up what she had to do for baby Lann. As hard as her delivery was, she was the CUTEST mom and I LOVED seeing her finally able to hold her baby and be the mommy. What a great ending to a very emotional day. haha

Can I just add in a thought? I have been SO blessed to have met and worked so close with Crystal these last 3 years. I know we can all relate that when we get along with our boss the work is easier. I know I've been blessed with having more then a "working relationship" with Crystal. She's taught me so much about teaching and maintaining a classroom it's been so fun working. We became close friends and have gone through so many "first time" experiences in our lives that we were able to share together. I had Bentley while working, she was newly married when we first started working together. Then she got pregnant and it was so fun going through this pregnancy together. Anyways, now you can see why I'm always mentioning her and work ;-)

So the last day of school was over and done with, now....SUMMER!

It may sound silly when I tell people, but summer can be hard for me. Let me explain. I know I'm not the smartest tool in the shed, and I also know that I need to be constantly active/moving to be SOMEWHAT productive. I've always been like this. Sometimes I feel like I need to physically wind myself up in order to even get out the door. That is why work was always good for me. It held me accountible for my time and actions. It got me going for the whole day so by the time I came home I was able to (most of the time) accomplish the things which needed to be done. So when summer gets here, I don't have that responsiblilty to have to be anywhere at a certain time, and I really struggle with it.

As horrible as it sounds it was a VERY hard adjustment being home an extra 7 hours with Bentley everyday. It was just different. You have to understand that I went from splitting my time up between 8 kids and following a detailed schedule, to being home and having my little boy scream at me in my face because heaven forbid I won't let him play with the scissors. haha

Hard to believe, right?

It has gotten better though, I've been trying to plan my day out a day before so I know what needs to be done the next. And I also know that being pregnant this summer is another thing I'm having to deal with. I wish I could do more with Bentley physically but honestly, my body just won't let me. 

I was really taken aback by all the pain I've had to go through with this pregnancy. I apparently have NO ligimant strength at all since the minute the baby started weighing more then a cantelope I've bad horrible ligimant pain that left me motionless for minutes at a time. It was very discouraging since it made work difficult but worst of all effected my play time with Benltey. There were nights where I had to have Jayson walk me to the bathroom because I couldnl't hold myself up. So to say the least, not the funnest part of this pregnancy. Everything else has been great though. 

Can I just say how EXCITED I am that I'm having this baby in summer?! I knew there was no way I could have another winter baby with the two of them being so close in age. Bentley is at this great stage where he has tons of energy and he just wants to explore, so knowing I'll still be able to at least take him out front and play for a few minutes is such a relief. Plus, that means I get to also spend time with my boss and co-worker who have had their babies already. Yay for babies! And it's also a great time to catch up with other stay-at-home mommies and set up play dates. I really do have the coolest friends and they really, REALLY put up with a lot from me. I'm an odd one sometimes and they always just go with the flow when I'm around, haha 

Wow, so to make a long entry even LONGER........nah I'm just kidding. I'll post this then break up the other news I had. ;-) 

EASTER!!!

Bentley LOOOOVED Easter this year! He definitley caught on to the concept of finding the eggs....he just wasn't too great at putting them IN the basket for later! He would find an egg, then try to open it, then eat what was inside. Needless to say, most of the eggs were empty (thank heaven). haha Isn't he so cute!?!
I have more pictures on my phone, I just have to get them off! Sorry!